Inspiration

I'm moving back in with my mom, and in order to cope I am remodeling my old room.

Inspiration comes easily to me, but usually only in bits of pieces of a bigger picture. These are some rooms that I long to one day mold my own after.















Life is beautiful if you make it so.

Shop around

I need to go to the store.

My weekly cycle of batting fast food goes like this:

Don't have much money for food > Refuse to spend excess money at the grocery store > End up buying fast food that day > no food from store, so end up buying fast food the rest of that week > end up spending $30+/wk on fast food anyway > Had enough money for grocery store all along

If that makes sense. I always make excuses but they only leave my body craving healthier foods and my bank account suffering.

I am GOING to the store tonight. I'm going to be broke no matter what, so I may as well spend it on something I wont regret and something that will benefit my health.

Some notes on what I want to start eating:

Quick 'n easy stuff for work:
Chicken salads, w/ fruit
PB&J's w/ fruit

I also want to slowly get back on my insulin-resistance friendly diet that I had so much success with last time.

I am not looking to spend more than $40-$50 at the store, and that's pushing it. So we'll see what I get.

Blast from the Past

I just got off the phone with my ex. We got onto the topic of my celibacy.
"But you've always been a sexual person."
No. I've always feigned an interest in it.
I've always held back because I was never comfortable with myself.
Its never been content with sex.
You don't know me better than I know myself.

Clairty

365 days of celibacy.

I created this goal more out of necessity than anything else. I have somehow lost track of who I am, where I'm going and who I intend on being later in life. I am cheating myself out of precious moments and relationships by not being where I need to be right now.

Over the next year, I intend on working out a lot of kinks in my life in order to carry on with it properly. The focus will be on improving my weight/health, personality traits, habits, interpersonal relationships with friends and families and everything inbetween.

I have always restricted my blogs to certain topics and so I've never been able to write out my frustrations and mental blocks. But this is a free for all, I'll be writing as much or as little as I need.

And so this marks the first of what I hope will be many inspirational and eye-opening posts about finding who I am.